Instead of making a futile attempt of at least sticking to a NYR, I found myself this year destroying my last New Year’s resolutions that I’ve worked so hard to accomplish. And it merely took a few lapses.
1. Early Riser and Sleeper
What took six months to achieve took one late night to destroy. I had been starting to love the idea of getting up at 5 a.m. and going to bed at 9:45 p.m. A few more late night concerts and anime T.V. marathons last December and I was back to greeting the sun at 9 in the morning .
2. Being on time
I guess with often having a guilty start early in the day, this was bound to get affected. I believe #1 and #2 share a loving relationship and complement each other (this is in my case.). This week, I realized I was back to my nasty habit of being late for one hour. Yesterday was proof as I arrived an hour late from a meeting and was embarrassed that I was the only one they were waiting for. And so stabbing more guilty needles at myself, my self-esteem takes a nosedive.
3. Self-discipline in boob tube watching
I used to get hooked pretty easily in my favorite channels, their aggressive claws sinking into my consciousness and my active cognitive functions reduced to mundane deadweight -capable of only illuminating thoughts that involve flying kicks, lasers, angst, serpent orgies and flying milk bottles (what exactly am I watching??). I often had the urge to escape to this nonproductive form of procrastination, naturally forgetting what I was supposed to do. Nonetheless, I was able to curb this habit by gradually training myself to watch my shows from 10 to 2 minutes everyday last year. Thinking I was cured, I grew arrogant and (surprise, surprise) slipped. Thus learning a valuable lesson that recovery is easy, maintaining it is not.
I guess this means that my New Year’s Resolutions for 2006 would be to make a relapse prevention plan to stick to my last year’s NYRs.
As a consolation, I think the only good habit I was able to stick to last 2005 was washing the dishes after every meal.