Today started like any other day. I opened my email to check on that joke letter my friend sent me.
Then I saw it.
It was from an editor of a magazine I sent a query to. Unlike earlier actions, this time I didn’t have a single negative thought about ‘rejection’. I’ve been reconditioning my mental program for this day. Instead I opened it with some positive thoughts and a flicker of hope.
……Sure, send it in . Happy to take a look at [your story].
I melt to the ground in rubbery giddiness.
Now the story’s not you know there yet, but at least the editor was interested to look at it. That’s a positive first step. And a good one in fact.
I never had that sort of letter before.
Dazed eyes. Saliva drips.
Alright Kate! Get back to reality.
Then I read another email and it was a comment from Rita Schiano, a real life breathing author of Painting the Invisible Man, the voice who talked so passionately about writing and muses in this podcast that brought out a lot of different ranges of emotions in me (from surprise, to gushing, to tears) and inspired me all the more about writing. You can read her comment in my Contact page.
This was so surreal. I was so scared my grin would get any more wider and I’d end up looking like Heath Ledger’s the Joker minus the green hair.
This morning I attempted a trial run of a live out of the box lifestyle experiment –the 7 days without a negative thought. I’ve first heard about this in a Tony Robbins audio and thought that being a positive person, this might be relatively easy for me to do. In fact it was so easy that I got a headache during breakfast just trying to be conscious of my thoughts and trying to filter the negative ones. Unfortunately, the more I did it, the more they sprung up. So it was harder than I originally thought. I tend to be more negative than I positively thought.
Tomorrow is another busy teaching day. 4 2-hour classes straight –the busiest in my week so far. I’m hoping to edit my draft on my writing mentor this Wednesday and post it up.
In case you’re wondering, you can find the excerpt of the short story in question in this post: Writer’s Block or Unblock and Dinner with Shakespeare excerpt.
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