I’ve talked about deciding where to focus my attentions at whether it be building this blog, my freelancing career or writing fiction.
I’m glad to note there are other writers joining me in re-assessing their writing goals. Recently coming at a crossroads. Knowing that we’ve got to step back before we burn ourselves:
It’s so important to get clarity. I remember years ago I came upon this line at Steve Pavlina’s uber-popular article that’s probably encased in marble in the hall of self-helpdom: DO IT NOW. I’m like, Pff! This line’s easy. Of course, I know what I want. At that time, I wasn’t even making any attempt to follow my dream. Now I’m just coming to terms with how so many layers are buried in this one quintessential line. I always knew I wanted to be a writer. I just didn’t know there were so many ways to get there.
What happened was that there were just so many things I wanted to do that I didn’t know where to focus my attention. So I’m tinkering here, fiddling a little bit there and basically scurrying all over the place putting out any fire that comes up. My mind has become clouded and cluttered. I’m constantly overwhelmed. There’s no crystal clear clarity, my eyes formed into slits with all their focus on that one single red target on the dartboard and all my system’s tensing to barge right into it screaming, “GO! GO! GO!”
I wasn’t giving it my all. There was no overwhelming force. I wasn’t giving 100%. And I know I’ve been holding myself back. I’m beating myself up because I realized I wasn’t giving it my best. I wasn’t consistently hitting that spot on the wall over and over again until it explodes. Because there were so many things I wanted to do and just so little of me to give. I want to build this blog to create a Googleable presence, to connect and reach out to people, make a difference and a contribution through my stories and my articles. I want to start a freelancing career so that I can finally support myself doing what I love to do. I want to submit my fiction to contests, magazines and ezines so that my characters’ stories would be heard and touch others, that they wouldn’t just live inside me but in other people’s hearts. I want to write fiction so that RIGHT NOW I can start honing and practicing my storytelling skills so that years later I won’t look back with regret and say, “If I had started when I was young, I would have been really good by now and even have some stories published under my belt.”
This weekend, I’m going to take a step back from the pernicious forces surrounding me and pulling me into different directions. Re-assess my writing goals and what single thing I can give my all on. I will force myself to take a deep scary look and reach down deep inside me. Sort out the tangling mess of weaving and smooth them into an organized pattern onto the loom of my mind. Be unflinchingly honest and tell myself, “I’m not perfect. I’d like to be Superwoman but I wasn’t fortunate to be born in the Heroes gene pool. But I can focus all my abilities into one area and be a little extraordinary in it. If Forrest Gump can do it, heck so can I.”
Which one do you really want to focus at the moment? What’s the ONE THING that you know you give a 100% of your attention to, you would definitely succeed and hit that bull’s eye?